cancelled

It's been a good week since I started on my LSD-DMT followup.
I updated and finished the soundtrack
and for the next week I want to build up a big library full of animations for later use.

So what I thought is, I want to involve ideas and fears of others, I want to know what would seriously freak you out,
it can be an idea, a scene, an object, an atmosphere.
It will probably pop up in a subliminal way.
Don't be freaked out by the idea that I wanna rip you off. I just want to know what you'd like to see in a movie that is meant to turn out really freaky and disturbing.

I won't spoil much more at this point of time.
Just be sure to look forward to it
and Tom go set the prizemoney really high so I can move to the US after finishing this movie.
Also: Hire me.

I'm making it official now.
I'll make a movie for the contest, and I'll work on it the same way I did work on LSD-DMT two years ago.
It's gonna be psychotic.. already created the lightinfluences the way i need it. completely dark with red covers on the windows so there's only black and red, and the screen.

I put the soundtrack together already and I can tell
it IS gonna be a sequel to LSD-DMT. The working title is AFTEREFFECTS
but this may change throughout time.

Anything can happen. It's gonna be freaky, just how you would want it to be on halloween, while still not being a stereotype horror film.
I like playing with the viewers emotions to achieve a much deeper effect.

I hope to improve it alot quality wise, from two years ago, though I did not have much practice since then.
The damn soundtrack turned out much better already
so
look forward to this halloween.

ill bust my ass open to make it happen.

Hallo it's sqeezy.
long time no see.

Okay quickshot.
My old tablet was broken for too long. Now I borrowed a mini one which actually works.
I'm gonna fucking make a flash animation right now.
Keep me motivated to finish it in the next few hours, without making it toooo bad,
by proposing your deepest desires. State your thoughts.Whatever.

I'll just start working right now.

No picture because it distracts you people.

Twas nuts, doods.
Overall Rating 10

I consider those 4 days some of the best time of my life so far. (I hope it ain't too sad to say that)
but everyone I met was a blast and I made some friends all across the world.
I'm loving you dudes.
Actually I'm gonna try to give everyone his personal review (see if I can get all the names right)
because that's more fun for everyone than just repeating over and over again what we did:

Bezman:
I can still hear your voice in my head from this mornin "you wanna pley my cardgame?"
And then we just left and you had to leave without anyone saying bye ]:
You're a great dancer I have heard and have some great poses when taking pictures.
I can't wait to see all of dem.
You can also write well with your feet and your hairgrowth is extremely manly.

Kess:(I can't recall your username)
What did we actually do together? I've forgotten it all already.
You're one of those serious boys I think, but we laughed together so it's all good.
I think I knew you from teh webs before, yes?

MrArnarchy:
Didn't introduce myself, sorry. You've got the cute innocence on you, it mustve been a cool experience for you, definitely was for me.You could become a cool personality when gettin out of puberty. Rock on.
The Girl:
for some reason I can't quite catch womens name at the first time.. I'm a rudeboy.
Hmm dunno what to say.. I fancy your bum?

KeanSlamdyke:
You're my perfect nerd.
I owe you a copy of rockband. Come and chase me budday.
Girl2 which is supposely related to the Kayn:
'saw ya starrin right there hunney. mmhya.

HappyHarry:
We actually didn't exchange one word.
The first day I was still kinda cold so I didn't even introduce myself to some of you guys.
Sorry bout that. You're a great animator, must've been the only one to not tell you that till now.
High Five

anyways

Harry unknown username
Loved your smile from the end of the metro. Youre the true Happy Harry. We didn't interact much, did we? But you were there and did great that's what matters.

TomMogly:
we had our times on this meetup man.
you were kinda outta yourself like me sometimes so I think you're up to even more moogely goodies but you're a great brother.
I'm sorry I laughed about you breaking up with your girl.

EvilDeanDog
You looked messed up all the way through but you smiled. It was epic.
The last words you said to me where mumbled and barely understandable,
You must have been trying to tell me something about the hotdogstand we just passed.

STEVE
Thanks for the pizzaslice!
It was good to have "the black guy" around because luis considers himself a "whitey"
so we could behave like skewlboys on a classtrip, put our beds together and giggle about the large black penis that attacks like a snake.
It was awesome to have a Nyu Z landr around aswell you're not just the black guy (can I say that on TV?)
Hope to see ya again on another meetup.
You're the Steve.

JPI:
We didn't really talk either ]: but you looked like a guy from my old skool who lays in the grass all day playing the trumpet and reading books who always was a gag when seeing him, so I had my fun with you even if we didn't interact.
Great Photoshop skillz.

Paranoia:
All you did was open your mouth when being looked at.
You're a machine.

Shalashaska:
You were the underground leader in my point of view.
You know what you're talking about and you got the cockney alright.
Also got your morals set right.
You're a strong personality. Badass. Hope to see ya again.

luka:
You're awesome to hang around with and one of the good ones.
This meetup totally motivated me to get back into the community because I realize there are so many great personalities under those sneaky nicknames.
I wanna stay in touch with you, maybe really actually start working on something "again".
I mean, that's sorta kinda what this meetup was for right?

Marcus Fenix:
What the shit were you supposed to do in the fridge? Watch the beer, that's right.
But the shit.. somebody grabbed it.. you weren't paying attention.
You also pose on each photo like that egoraptor faggot.
You were the weakest member on this meetup.

wOnchop:
You only popped up to get new trophies for you phoneycamera, righty?
It was a beautiful feeling hunting you in the bumper car.
nahh, youre a good guy anyways just.. no, No criticism in this newspost.

TheSuperFlashTom:
You're tall in many ways.
Glad we actually got in contact at the restaurant cause ya knoww I'm the shyguy and I never approach the "humanz" so yeah, I'm glad you're not a dick.

TheSuperFlashDim:
You've been there too?

Paul:
I like you. We are a bad influence for you dude. Don't pull condoms up through your nose, okay?
It doesn't make you look cool and somebody else is gonna put a video of it on the internet.
It also continues the chain of stupidity.
Also: You broke rockband.

KevinAsthmaticHamster:
Can't forget the Kev. You're hilarious, just like in that movie. Didn't actually watch it yet.
You're a winner.
It was a lot of fun hanging around with you. You're always up for the lolz.

HansAlmighty. the BBF:
We could be the perfect gay lovers. Where one is always grossed out.
It was too little time to really get to know you, I know you can put your faces on,
but those are funny as hell, so I really think I met someone who's not only full of benefits for myself when staying in contact with because you're full of potential boy (..im sneaky) but also someone I can withstand to stay around without it losing it's touch..
besides that, there has been way too many akward moments, hans. >;U
summup: hansom.

and at last, the one who made it happen for me, and everyone else.
LuisCastanon:
Mmh.. It was just how I always imagined. Everything I was hoping for. Minus the akwardness, mostly.
Being molested by the heavy-in-weight light-in-height bolivian, fast-as-lightnin-comebackin' liver-destroying, evil bastard, in a "dad" costume
Youve been my friend before and you were the only one I really knew before this meetup.
See ya soon... incase not, then definitely in hell.

I think that's it.. actually I know it's not but you think you're important enough to be mentioned here?
Why don't I remember your name then, nor have anything at all to write about you, huh?
Try harder next time.

Everyone else, why are you still here?
Haven't you got anything important to do?

Just wanted to get this out real quick because I'll have most forgotten by tomorrow.
I'm just glad I went this time. It wasn't as awkward as expected.

Here's a picture of a random crowd:

Yuppie. Finally getting out of this german place.
In a few hours I'll be hijacking my jetplane to Stansted and then..
well I don't know what'll happen there actually.
Newgrounds Meetup?

wait what? what did I get myself into?

Well it's going to be fun I think. Lmao Luis. I planned to never meet you irl and now see what you did...

Hopefully Ill get my hands on an xboxb60 controller and theirfor play sum castle crasherz through this meetup.

I have no idea what to expect, and I hope there won't be too many cameras.

But Im confident this meetup will bring me my Newgrounds spirit back.
^O^ Konichiwa Sänchez and I'm out to catch my flight boo.ya.

lost interest.
see you in a month.

Only fair to state some thoughts,
I'm tired of the bashing.

The original motivation I had for animation was back in 2002 when I got a lot of users like ShawnHollern, DanPaladin, Gel and all those flashartists to detest me for I stole others art and posted it as my own, pitiful. It motivated me so much to prove them wrong that it got me where I've been.

Suddenly there was nothing left to work for, the motivation shrank.
I had no fun no more in animating, which bugged me alot.. I couldn't produce quality animation no more.
Sux.

Anyways, RWD came up "wanna join?" felt like a good idea at the time."sure."

"tis about quality spam" oh awesome I can do that.

Cancer.
Block. Block block block.

I wanna submit i need to submit something.

ehh spammy flash groups.. spam?
Yeah. submit LSD again see where it takes you
OhLOL daily feature, NG is stupid.

"No No. You can't do that, delete them or youll have to leave."

but what its a spam group? it was quality spam wasn't it?
people enjoyed it, demanded more.

dont get it.. I thought this group wasn't to appeal to the majority of the public but rather to those smart folks that could understand that kind of bizzare humour.

"nonononono, thats not how it works, youre no longer welcome."

"Haha TF quit, what an emo."

oh ok, actually I don't care much, I had no contact to the members, I saw no motivation in this, it felt more like getting some animators who were able to produce quality but didn't have to rely on always pumping out the best things.

I saw the RWD as a relief from the pressure of the portal, where we had to follow certain standards to achieve something. but it wasn't a relief at all. It actually built up more pressure for me than anything else in the last days.
And though I was aware of what I was doing, that it would get me to lose "fans" and respect or whatever I don't simply give a fuck about what the public thinks of me no more,

and it's more motivating working for the haters than for the pitiful "fans" who are disrespectful and ungrateful anyways.

So anyways, I'm moving on. It's not like I have lost anything.
The RWD is fun for those who see it as fun, but it's a bitch that can only break apart at some point of time, because there's no way to hold all those egos together.
I don't see the reason anyways, Newgrounds is the Flash group we all belong to.
Creating small groups only to have backup for one's message is kinda cowardish.

The ClockCrew instead is something completely different, because every member stands for the same thing. It is all about B.
And this is what made the group so strong.

The RWD is simply gonna try to collect more quality artists, to raise their reputation, but there is no message they get across with what they do. I've never been fond of the StarSyndicate,
but they have the copyright on the name of the RWD. They are actually doing radically wrong.

But do as you want. I'll remain a radical wrong doer because I've been one from the very beginning, before it all began.
And I think I've done the groups name the most right. And I don't need no backup to help me get my point across.
Controversy for the win.

Now stop the freaking drama, I don't "hate" any of you. I just can't stand your cockmongling rules.
I've been dragged out, I did not officially quit. Get your facts right.

Stop dramatizing now and move on, jeez.
You're all such assholes.

fffffffftfzfhnfghashz
clocks.

Yeah, I'm making a frontpage post for this baby.
Took me 15 hours of work.

I created an artthread in the forums that you should check out if you wanna see progress shots and other stuff.

tis right here

Because it's true, I have not managed to kill myself. lulz. I'm currently pretty disorientated but I'm getting along.
Expect me at the London Meetup this August.

and here's what I originally came for.
swf version of the pic below for ultimate zoomage.
its all flash.
CLICKER ME

PS: I started animating the following movies:
A new X Hours of my Life
AMovieWithMusicInIt
Earth Intruders
RWD Collab

None will ever come out. <3