Hey NG.
I haven't been too active lately.. my excuse for this would only be my mental condition which has been flipped around like crazy lately.
I can't really tell what's going on.. but I'm having kinda tuff times staying alive.
On the normal basis though, which excludes the possibility of me going nuts and dying any day, I'm still animating..
I finished the first commisioned work for the band Häckenjecks.. they were really happy with it, sadly not even that gave me any kind of kick or motivationrush.
But nontheless.. the people from EMI got to know me, and they asked for a new project right away.
"The eskimo dance"
It's to some awful childish song and it'll be for the winter season. I think they'll publish it like crazy and annoy everyone with it in those overflowing ringtone commercials.. but atleast if they do, it'll be my first work for TV ever. That's the reason I'll go on working with it.
I'll submit these kinda works alot later than normally cause I dont think many would be interested in them here, and also cause it's contract work after all and there are some legal issues.
I quit production and planning for my Christmas Tale "Choconugget" which was supposed to become the cutest thing you'd ever witness etc. due to motivation and time issues. Maybe next year Choconugget will come to life.
My Munny for the contest Luis is holding got stolen.. which hit me harsh cause I was putting love into the making of it.. but there's nothing to do bout it no more..
still sorry.
I started a personal project for myself again though. Finally.
Like in the good ol times it'll be random(though not at all) and experimental, with me animating stuff only whenever I feel like it.. so there's no stress nor rush. I can't tell when it'll finish.. but I guess the closer it gets to completion the earlier ill get fed up with it not being finished and just pile it together in a weird way.
I hope it can be my best personal work anyways, because the songs I'm using are inspiring me very much and I want it to inspire the people that'll watch it to a crazy extend.
Look forward to it.
Lifewise I am going through shittingdicknipples, as mentioned. No need to whine about it here but I figure it could do good to give note to youz once in a while. Cuz youre cute.
I'm trying to change things in my life that made it go down all so harsh.. but I think I lost too much will by now to strive for the best. I rly learned to hate myself over the years, and some kinda skitzo side of mine is really making the best efforts to keep me from achieving a shit.
I hope I can visit V for a week during Christmas. I'd really need it and it would help me alot.
wish me luck heh.
Sorry for always being depressed and unmotivated. I'd love to produce and produce all day long.
I'd love to write hundreds of pages of scripts for a huge movie and animate it all by myself, recording songs and designing and producing and putting all that's hidden inside mah head atm into it.
I'd love to make you laugh and feeel with my work, and make you gag, and impressed and left speechless in intimate ways... but I'm continuing to build up a block that's growing bigger and thicker than I could ever break from the inside.
Bare me some more though, it seems like I'll always come back.. and maybe one day I'll rise and blast you away out of nowhere with a lifeproject that's more epic than I could put into words right now.
if I ever stop raping my potential, that is.
Love anyways.
BTW: I'm still Sqeezy.
BlueHippo
Sorry to hear all that Tim :( Hopefully everything works out... I have a hard time being motivated as well, perhaps it's the same issue with the dank nugs ;P I need extreme pressure to get anything done now a days. Perhaps one day you will get those toons finished, hopefully they don't rot on your computer as unfinished flas... i know i have far too many of those :/ the munny being stolen sucks too, i never even got to make a design for that contest, how pathetic. Hope you find your source of motivation, and can pull yourself out of this slump. Much love to you, and your work buddy. Take it easy <3